My Naked Feelings!!!

 

Hey Human,

Longtime right?

I have been busy. So busy that I don't even remember what I did in my most busiest time.

I know hardly people read this blog and my feelings can be naked here. 

No one bothers what is written here. Right? who cares ?

 I am not blaming anyone, everybody has their life so I understand completely.

I feel this is my safe place to pen down every damn thing I feel.

Anyhow, I am writing here because lately I am feeling too many complicated feelings. They are so complicated that I feel like I am chained by them. 

Sometimes I think it's all in my head and my overthinking is making things complicated.

Is it real? are my feelings just an illusion? or I am just feeling the way I am feeling because I want to feel that way. 

Am I imposing feelings on my heart and head to get hurt. Maybe I am looking for an inspiration.

Back in the days I used to like only those things/people which/whom I was sure that I wont get them. That depressed feeling made me write many things and after writing I felt an unknown happiness and it was so addictive I loved that addiction. 

I am sure even you have addictions. Addicted to being happy, being loved, being praised, being admired really exists. And to some point they are good. But as the saying goes too much of anything whether it is good, bad, love, hate etc is always not good. Everything should have certain limit.

If I think in a way, yes that is true. But is it? when do we know that limit? after loosing it all or after gaining it all? or not knowing about it all?

I am confused. 

Ok, now coming back to my feelings, may be I am doing the same again. 

I have been born this way. 

I wanted to explore the world in my own way and somewhere living a normal life (society expected life) I am lost. 

I feel like so many things were taken away from me and I will never be able to do them. Especially mistakes. Yes! you read it right. I wanted to make mistakes and learn from them, I wanted to feel how it felt when you did certain things at certain age or with certain mindset. May be for others it's a mistake and may be for some it's not.

There is no right or wrong in this world. We made certain rules and we decided what to follow and what not to follow. I guess we as humans did what we call now as rules of the society just to have some controls.

We were uncontrollable. Yes, this might be the only valid reason I can think of.

Just imagine a world where we had control over ourselves and did everything whatever we loved. What if we loved each other and had only empathy for each other. I am sure that the world would have been a better place.

I guess only LOVE would have existed in that world. We all would have had a ZERO complicated life. 

Individual soul's happiness would have been the priority. 

I have written enough for today. I will write again soon.

Those who have read this think. Anyhow who am I to tell. 

I am just a mere common commoner.

Yours truly,

TCC