Hey Human,
Today I am gonna write about my teenage days. You all remember how you were when you were from thirteen to eighteen right? High harmones, high energy, high enthusiasm, high dreams, feeling high on emotions, high expectations, high on every damn thing. Always always trying or wanting new, sometimes something scary new, having the feeling that CAN DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. Well in my case I was always high on emotions. There were times I was so confident about my looks, my talent, my body, my brain, my people (I always thought they all love me like I am their best- friend/cousin/child/student etc.) everything and then there was the time, when I doubted on everything.
I felt so bad I cant even imagine that "feeling" now. It was so painful, that much I can tell.
I felt no love, no kindness, no nothing. It was always very very sad. I used to hear all sad songs and not only hear them, I felt them. Each letter in the lyrics. I used to worry all the time that I will never be loved. I was living in a shell of sadness.
"No one likes me", "no one adores me", "no one admires me", "no one loves me", "I am not good looking", "all others have people who adore them", "others are so good at everything" etc etc etc.,
It took me few years to overcome entirely but I did overcome.
Now whenever I think of that phase, I feel I wasted my energies on things which didn't even matter.
But trust me those were burning issues to me when I was a teenager or when I was under 21.
I know we all have been there, we all share own past which we are not very proud of.
Everyone of us, no matter how famous you were, we all had our own set of insecurities. But we all surpassed those. We lived those fears and overcame many of them. I know it's a slow process to overcome few fears but that doesn't make us weak. If we were weak we wouldn't be here now. Not that I am telling anything bad but like I wouldn't be writing and you wouldn't be reading this and feeling that 'yes, once I was too', 'once I had too'....
So the bottom line is we all can overcome anything. We just have to live that particular day and trust me next day will be better. Again follow the same process "JUST LIVE THE DAMN DAY" and keep repeating 'this too shall pass and new sun will rise'.
Sometimes I have lived 'the hour', 'the minute'. After that particular hour or particular minute that particular pain reduced. I am not lying I have done that and still do it sometimes. Living that particular minute or hour or day will be extremely difficult but we all have to do it.
It's like you walk under raging hot sun and then run to find a place with shade. We all do it in our daily hustle. While going for shopping, or walking to work or just walking sometimes on the road. Same thing we have to do for our emotions, take that raging sun's extreme hotness for some moment and then rest in shade feeling the hotness go off of our head.
I also agree that, those years are just golden. Because our energy was just outstanding then. Some of you who are reading this are living those years and some of you, like me, have passed those years. Those who are living, please keep the energy and no matter what your insecurities are. Just remember you will survive. Trust me on this. Those who have already passed, please bring back that positive energy, at least some of it so that you can make the present more energetic.
Whenever I feel low now I tap that energy and feel like I want to do it, I want to conquer the world.
You never know when you tap into yours you might be surprised. You might find "MAGIC".
No matter what I tell or write its all "YOU" who can make 'YOU', lift 'YOU', 'create 'YOU'.
Remember that "MAGIC IS NOTHING BUT YOU".
It's up to you to tap on your inner energy and know yourself more. Who am I to tell I'm just a mere common commoner.
Your's truly,
TCC
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